Today marks the iconic day in which Totally Tatiana was born.
A year ago today, if someone had told me I was on the road to recovery and I was working harder than ever before, I honestly would’ve just laughed in their faces. However, I’ve grown and developed a lot over the space of a year, and I just want to celebrate with you, my gorgeous readers, and say thank you for putting up with me for a whole year.
This year has flown by, but in many ways it feels like it’s dragged on which sucks. However, I have gained a small platform which is very exciting to me! I never normally stick at something for an extended period of time, but I do feel like I’ve found my passion – writing for all you guys!! In the short span of a year, I have managed to gain a niche audience, get my name placed on a list for best UK lifestyle bloggers, and I even have some devoted fans who always comment and like my articles.
All in all, I hope I’ve been one of the constants everyone’s needed over these past months.
The morning of the 20th August 2020 will definitely go down as one of the most panic inducing mornings in history. Why? It was the day of my GCSE results.
This year GCSE results were very different… for obvious reasons. The thing that stressed me out the most however, was the fact that we had no idea how we’d done. We only had mock papers from school to go on and that’s not the most accurate source of data.
On the night before the mocks, I lay awake panicking. I was on the phone to my friends until 4am because I simply couldn’t sleep, then only to get a grand total of two hours sleep that night. I was terrified. My whole life I’d had people telling me I’d never amount to anything and that I was a good for nothing whore. Even though that’s total bullshit, I felt like this was my one chance to prove them wrong.
All I was hoping was that I would pass five exams with at least a four; including English lit, English lang and maths. My actual results were better than I could’ve hoped for.
After my first set of mocks in January, I was predicted the following grades in each subject:
English Language: 3
English Literature: 5
Maths (foundation): 4
Design and Technology: Textiles: 1
Performing Arts: Merit
As you can tell, I passed a few, but not exactly monumental. After getting back these results in January, I began really putting the work in and thankfully, it paid off. My results in August 2020 were as follows:
Not only did I pass everything with a high pass, but I majorly surpassed my expectations with all the grades I got! In particular, I didn’t just get a distinction in Performing Arts, but instead a distinction* – the highest grade you can get!
Even though the results are clearly not by any stretch of the imagination amazing, considering my mental health was not amazing and I struggled lots with focusing and trauma. If I can do something like this while struggling, imagine what my A Level results will be like, when I’m passionate about a subject and I’ve left behind all the toxicity!
If anyone’s about to take their GCSEs, my advice would be, follow the deadlines, work hard on coursework, revise a fair amount, and make sure you understand the work! Ask questions and, as aforementioned, stick to the deadlines! I have lots more tips and tricks on my school page. There, I talk about focus, mental health and information about revision I wish I knew! I hope it’s helpful to you and I hope you enjoyed this article! I know I’ve been messing up the 30 Day Writing Order, but by the end of August, there will be 30 posts out, just maybe two in one day. Sorry for any inconvenience caused, all the best, love you all!