My GCSE Results!

The morning of the 20th August 2020 will definitely go down as one of the most panic inducing mornings in history. Why? It was the day of my GCSE results.

This year GCSE results were very different… for obvious reasons. The thing that stressed me out the most however, was the fact that we had no idea how we’d done. We only had mock papers from school to go on and that’s not the most accurate source of data.

On the night before the mocks, I lay awake panicking. I was on the phone to my friends until 4am because I simply couldn’t sleep, then only to get a grand total of two hours sleep that night. I was terrified. My whole life I’d had people telling me I’d never amount to anything and that I was a good for nothing whore. Even though that’s total bullshit, I felt like this was my one chance to prove them wrong.

All I was hoping was that I would pass five exams with at least a four; including English lit, English lang and maths. My actual results were better than I could’ve hoped for.


if you’re confused:

After my first set of mocks in January, I was predicted the following grades in each subject:

Citizenship: 5

Science: 4-3

English Language: 3

English Literature: 5

Maths (foundation): 4

Media: 3

Design and Technology: Textiles: 1

History: 4

Performing Arts: Merit

As you can tell, I passed a few, but not exactly monumental. After getting back these results in January, I began really putting the work in and thankfully, it paid off. My results in August 2020 were as follows:

Not only did I pass everything with a high pass, but I majorly surpassed my expectations with all the grades I got! In particular, I didn’t just get a distinction in Performing Arts, but instead a distinction* – the highest grade you can get!

Even though the results are clearly not by any stretch of the imagination amazing, considering my mental health was not amazing and I struggled lots with focusing and trauma. If I can do something like this while struggling, imagine what my A Level results will be like, when I’m passionate about a subject and I’ve left behind all the toxicity!

If anyone’s about to take their GCSEs, my advice would be, follow the deadlines, work hard on coursework, revise a fair amount, and make sure you understand the work! Ask questions and, as aforementioned, stick to the deadlines! I have lots more tips and tricks on my school page. There, I talk about focus, mental health and information about revision I wish I knew! I hope it’s helpful to you and I hope you enjoyed this article! I know I’ve been messing up the 30 Day Writing Order, but by the end of August, there will be 30 posts out, just maybe two in one day. Sorry for any inconvenience caused, all the best, love you all!

xo baby, Tati xoxo

Voting Age – Tati Talks

Politics is shambles. You don’t really know what’s going on and neither do the leaders for about four years but then you blink and suddenly everyone’s having Brexit parties for some reason or another. There’s always some sort of non-political politics related scandal about an MP being a not-so-secret bigot or a US presidential candidate being accused of some horrific act which makes your blood boil. But hey! That’s politics! What a world we live in am I right? So, now I have stated my ever increasingly controversial opinion on politics, might as well go right to the deep end and talk about UK General elections voting age.

Figure One

Looking over these rules, overall, I don’t really have an issue with them, except for one. That one is the age. I have such strong opinions on it, I wrote a whole essay on it in my Year 10 mock citizenship exam. It was an 8 Mark question and I wrote well over two pages (I did get full marks though which is cool). So, to reiterate my point but to a larger audience, I think the voting age should be lowered from 18 to 16. There are so many reasons, but I am here to discuss a small three with you. Please comment your opinions below, I love hearing from people, and I love debates! DISCLAIMER: for many of these points I will be using hyperboles, and so even though the facts are true (I’ll leave the links I used at the bottom of this article) my opinion may be exaggerated to prove the point – debates must do. This is a controversial subject but I am not one to shy away and so I am going to face this head on. I mean no disrespect to anyone; these are just my thoughts and feelings.


Firstly, I think that the voting age should be lowered because anyone who is registered as a UK citizen can vote, and those under 18 are UK Citizens also. This includes perpetrators like those who have committed heinous acts against society. So, if we are giving permission to serial killers to express their freedom, why can’t we allow innocent 16-year olds to express their basic human rights to freedom and expression? (Article 19 – Universal Declaration of Human Rights). At this point, it begs the question, is this just a basic act of human decency Britain, or is it a deprivation of the human rights that we get taught about as soon as we start school?
Statistically, people do not want young people to vote because they feel there is no point as the voter turnout will not be affected. This is a valid concern since in 2017 43% of 18-19-year olds did not vote in the general election. This is staggering compared to the fact that a mere 16% of over 70-year-olds did not vote. However, the reason why so many young people did not vote is because they did not understand the concept. They were not fully educated on the matters which meant they did not understand what the difference between voting for lib-dems or the conservatives would make. There is a simple solution to this “conundrum”: We educate the younger generation on voting – we explain how to vote, why their vote matters, all the different parties, left-wing vs right-wing etc. Not only does this make young people more prepared for their future and make them more well-rounded individuals, but it also makes the voter turnout greater, meaning that Britain will be a true democracy with equal amounts of different demographics voting.

If we look at the laws that sixteen-year olds hold, they are very questionable and at some points controversial. The laws a sixteen-year-old hold are shown in figure 2:

Figure Two

Many of these laws are very controversial and would raise a few eyebrows. Furthermore, when you are aged thirteen, you are told you must choose your GCSE options, something which greatly shapes your future. The fact we are giving young people this control, but not to choose something which greatly shapes the future of this country is definitely wrong.
In conclusion, I think we should lower the voting age from eighteen to sixteen because it is the young peoples future, it gives them good life skills for the future and it increases the chances of an equal democracy.
Thank you for reading, please like this post if you enjoyed it, comment your views and opinions on this topic and follow this blog if you want to see more about what I write 🙂


xo baby, Tati xoxo

REFERENCE LINKS:
http://www.youthoria.org/home/life/rights/what-can-i-do/1238766403.391/
https://www.gov.uk/elections-in-the-uk
https://yougov.co.uk/topics/politics/articles-reports/2017/06/13/how-britain-voted-2017-general-election

The Future

Ever since I was younger, I’ve enjoyed having long-term goals for myself.  I felt they gave me a purpose and something to achieve.  Even though the goals have changed quite drastically (Mum, Dad I assure you I no longer wish to be a “Hula-Hula Girl” on the “Streets of Hawai-i-i” – whatever that was) my aim has overall been quite simple: not lose sight of my morals, try make a difference, and do what makes you happy.  Corny I know, but they are all quite logical and I hope that by following those three steps, I’ll be able to do what I love.

Whenever I speak to someone about their future, the natural thing to do is completely panic.  That’s completely fine!  I’m in the same boat as you: great-aunt Patricia has finished asking you about school and she goes onto the question that makes every teen tremble with terror: “what do you want to do with your future?”  Sure, her intentions are innocent enough, but your mind suddenly draws a blank and you have no clue what to say.  Talking about your future is a scary thing as a teen, considering you’re not allowed to go to the bathroom without permission but you have to deal with people telling you that if you don’t pass your GCSEs you’re essentially a failure.  The way people put pressure on those choosing their GCSE options is ridiculous.  You’re barely a teenager and you don’t even know what’s going on in your bodies, let alone your future.  To anyone about to choose their options, I promise you, it’s not something to lose your head over.  You chose what you enjoy, and what you’re good at.  If you’re unhappy with your options by the time year eleven rolls round, don’t even stress it!  You’ll be onto a bigger and better thing soon enough.  There are always night classes and retakes and so many other options if you want to change your career path.  No pressure just be who you wanna be.

Once you get over the initial fear and panic of your future, you’ll probably have some ideas about what you want to do when you get older.  For me, this is quite simple, I have my ideal fairyland dream, my realistic dream, and my backup dreams.  I’ll walk you through each one.  Even though it may look like I’m facing the impossible, I’m not giving up and I won’t back down.  I will achieve my dream and my goals for the future and then some.  The future is as bright as you make it and my future is a freaking LED power efficient lightbulb with a control which changes the colour.  It doesn’t burn out and it looks jazzy and snazzy too.

In the idealistic fairyland dreamworld, my blog will really take off.  I’ll become an empowering activist, speaking about feminism all over the world, helping the world to become a safer place to live in.  Unfortunately, as much as I wish, hope, and pray that it’ll happen, the chances are exceedingly slim.  I’m a realist so I have my realistic dream and goals for my future.

My realistic dream is not the easiest path, but I am driven and as always, I’m a girl on a mission.  I want to become a legal barrister – either for defence or prosecution, I haven’t decided yet.  I want to work my way up the ranks and become a judge at the crown court.  This, of course, is a very big dream but I am so committed, and I really want this.  I’ve always been fascinated with the legal system, even more so recently as I love true crime and the barristers for those cases always appear so put together and persuasive.  I think barristers do an interesting job and I’d love to be a part of that.  I enjoy debating and making a change so being a lawyer combines two of my favourite things.  How am I going to do it?  Well, the plan is as follows: ace my A-Levels, get into an amazing law school – possibly international, hired as an apprentice at a law firm after my graduation from uni, rise up the ranks there, etc etc.  I’m a woman on a mission, what can I say?

Of course, I have my plan C (and plans D through to Z but we don’t need to go into that).  Plan C is to become a journalist.  It’d be just like my blog, except for a wider audience and a different array of topics.  It sounds like a fascinating job and I wouldn’t mind it at all.

There is no pressure to think about your life goals right now.  You have all the time in the world!  Just keep your head down and you’ll be A-Okay.  I wish you all the best, don’t forget to like, follow and comment – I love hearing from you all!

Tati over and out 🙂 

What I Wish I Knew Before GCSEs

If GCSEs were still going ahead, today I would have had my first official GCSE.  If they were still going ahead, I would have published this article at the end my exams.  However, as that’s not happening, no time like the present!

Since I chose my GCSE options, I have had many times where I have thought to myself damn, I wish I had known this sooner!  Of course, there’s no point in dwelling on the endless possibilities of life – that will just get you nowhere.  Instead, I’m here to give anyone who’s about to choose their GCSE subjects some advice that I wish I knew.  I have compiled a list of things that my teachers didn’t tell me until it was too late or just didn’t tell me whatsoever.  I hope that these pointers will help you on your way to achieving your true potential. 🙂

1) Start revising ASAP The sooner you start, the easier it will be. The topic will be stored in your head for longer and it’ll be way less work for you in the long run. It’s a perfect way of working out your weaknesses for each subject. The absolute latest you should start revising is the end of year 11.

2) Try not to miss class! Remember, the teachers are there to help you. They want you to get the highest grades possible so you have to at least try and apply yourself in each and every lesson. Of course, you’re bound to have off days and that’s completely fine, just rememer to take notes and focus as much as you can. Asking questions will also be really helpful so you don’t get stuck when revising at home.

3) Push out of your comfort zone and crack the whip! The best way to actually revise is to get into a mindset where you actually want to do well and will go to lengths to achive that. As soon as you accept the fact that doing well in your GCSEs is impossible without putting in the time and effort, you’re halfway there. Be strict on yourself, make sure you actually revise at least once a week. In the long run you’ll be so much better off for it.

4) There are no “easy pass” subjects. Contrary to what everyone says, every subject you choose will have an aspect which is very tricky. As long as you choose options for yourself, not for anyone else, you’ll be fine and hopefully won’t regret your options as much.

5) Use notes, flashcards or posters. I’m a visual person so I have to physically write something after seeing it to retain the information. I find posters work best, but depending on what style you learn best from, you can differ your revision style. I go into loads more detail about revision in my blog article https://totallytatiana.com/2019/11/30/totally-tatis-top-ten-revision-tips/ which you should check out after this. I have lots of websites and ideas which helped me pass my mock exams.

6) Take mocks seriously! This was definitely a regret for lots of my friends. You never know what’s going to happen before the final exams (proof right here). It’s also a perfect chance for you to find out how you would score in the real thing. Areas of weakness become apparent and you can tailor your revision timetable accordingly.

7) Listen to lo-fi hip-hop. I find it near impossible to work in complete silence. I get distracted way too easily but when I listen to music I find myself recreating the music video, pretending to be Lauren in the Kinky Boots Soundtrack, or dramatically becoming Anne Bolyen in Six the Musical. So, what do I do? I listen to a music genre called Lo-fi hip-hop. It’s instrumental music designed to help you relax and focus (and not unleash your inner Taylor Swift). I love it because it’s so much better than sitting in silence but as it’s lyricless, I can focus more on what I’m reading instead of the song.

8) Focus on you, not boys! I wish I had done that. I spent way too much time that could have been spent revising chasing after jerks who just wanted one thing. I spent so long crying about the he-said she-said that I didn’t focus on my future without these idots! Going into sixth form all I’m doing is getting myself a future, if I find a boo along the way then they can come along for the ride.

9) Plan in the exam! I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been running out of time in an English exam so I quickly bullet point my answers. That stuff saves my sorry sleepy ass. Once I was running out of time on an English paper so I bullet pointed my plan for a 40 mark question and started a kick-ass introduction. How many marks did I get? 21 Marks. It’s so much better than just accepting defeat when you have five minuites left. Every mark counts!

10) Keep up to date with coursework! I took two GCSEs which relied quite heavily on coursework: Performing Arts and Technology. I cannot stress enough that the best way to pass these classes is by listening to the deadlines and completing as much work as you can. It gives you so much free time at the end to edit and improve your work and it’s a lot less stressful! Trust me, future you will be eternally grateful!

Finally, take each day as it comes. You’re only human and at the end of the day you can only try your hardest. If you’re having a bad day, that’s completely okay and understandable. People won’t think any less of you after you get your results as long as you give it your all in that exam hall. It will all be worth it and GCSEs are merely a stepping stone to the next bigger, better part of your life.

Good luck, you’ve got this 🙂

My Year 11

Of course, I was prepared to do this article in June/July but then everything went slightly pear-shaped and now I’m somehow out of year eleven in March.  ¾ of the way done, without any GCSE’s on my CV.  Yikes.  Anyway, I could moan and groan and complain but I’m not going to do that because it will get us all no-where and it’s completely pointless.  Instead, I am going to reminisce on my year eleven experience. As abrupt as it may have been, lots happened to me, my mental health and just around the world in general.  I feel the 2020 leavers are the only year group who can say the following: Brexit happened and we all had parties, Trump nearly started WW3 and we were all getting ready to be drafted, an illness which began because of bat soup has now cancelled our GCSE’s and prom and the rest of year eleven overall.  We are now not allowed to see any of our friends or grandparents, and we are revising for GCSEs which are non-existent.  We truly are the elite ones.  As “lucky” as we are, my year eleven was a year full to the brim of ups and downs, highs and lows and it was overall a rollercoaster.  However, as short as it was, I am still writing about it so obviously it can’t have been that bad… right?

September 2019 was the month where it all turned to shit.  I hit rock bottom, my “friends” left me, and I had a serious self-identity crisis.  I was unsure of myself, doubting my every mood and I didn’t know what to do with myself.  I worked myself from the ground up, realising I didn’t need fakies and flakies and found my true friends.  They came in the form of Thumper, a BTEC Ron Weasley, a crazy boy who bought out my competitive side to the extreme, the BFG, Blondie and Heather Duke and Heather Chandler.  This tribe rooted me on and helped me overcome loads of mini hurdles and I couldn’t have done it without them.

October 2019, things slowly began looking up for me.  Even though I was diagnosed with an eating disorder, I slowly became more self-confident, wearing a Halloween outfit I’ve always wanted to wear, I was just afraid of what others would say.  I slowly began getting in the swing of socialising and I gradually became better with physical contact.  October was the month of partying and performing – I performed for my BTEC Performing Arts in one of the leading roles and performed in the West End – where Phantom of the Opera is performed!

My 2019 Halloween Outfit if anyone cares 🙂

November 2019 my mental health managed to reach a level playing ground.  I got into a relationship, I was managing school life and social life easily and from the outside looking in, I was living a picture-perfect life.

December 2019 was also a great month for me.  I began revising, had sixth form and college open days and interviews and I began thinking about my future – something I always struggled to do.

Of course, this couldn’t last.  By January 2020, my eating disorder came back, bigger and badder than ever.  I got dumped by the “perfect guy” learnt he both lied and cheated on me which didn’t exactly do the best for my self-confidence.  I got back together with him which is my biggest regret of year eleven.  Lots happened but it’s still extremely raw and painful to go over.  However, the small silver lining is I had my first set of mock exams and if they were my real GCSE’s I would have passed six out of eight of them which is more than the minimum requirement.

February 2020, bad things happened, I hit lower than rock bottom and I don’t want to go too much into it but I’m lucky to have come out only on the highest med dosage and a few cuts, scratches and bruises.

It may not be the end of March yet but my word loads has happened.  I somehow managed to clamber my way back up to level playing grounds which is probably the most impressive thing I’ve done this decade (heh).  I’m slowly getting back to my old, old self which I’ve suppressed for years.  I was revising my poor ass off but then GCSE’s were cancelled, as was the rest of year eleven so now I’m just revising so I don’t drive myself insane.  I may be unable to see my friends, but I’ve been on the phone to them for at least one hour a day and another hour I spend playing Just Dance with my little brother.  My friend said I could spend this time to properly reconnect with my brother and that is exactly what I’m doing.  Also, relationship wise, I’ve finally decided to listen to my parents and I’m staying single!  (Well, I’m crushing but nothings happening until after lock-down).

Even though my year eleven was extremely brief, lots happened and I’m happy to say that I’m mentally vibing – well, vibing as much as I can while being unable to see my friends face to face.  I hope this article can show you that even though bad things may happen, there’s always a plus, you just must look harder sometimes.  All in all, I’ve survived secondary school without being murdered or hurt too badly.  Next stop: I’ll be sixteen ready to start sixth form!  But until then, I’ll be here, yours truly,

Totally Tatiana xx

Totally Tati’s Top Ten Revision Tips

First of all, yes. Yes I did choose this title just because alliteration. That’s what you have to deal with when you decided to come on my website – which now has its own domain name! My Dad got it for me as an early Christmas present so thank you Dadddd xx

Anyway, I’m back! It’s been a while since I’ve been super busy trying to revise and also being ill. Oh, the life of a youngster. So, if you take GCSEs you’ll know, you have to do mocks (or PPEs) before June. My mocks for #GCSEs2020 are in January and I know not many people have begun to revise. I can hold my hand up and say that although I try and revise, I get sidetracked by things like cleaning my room, creating new hairstyles, playing the ukulele and even looking out of my window. I have friends who aren’t revising as “they’re just mocks!” (I’m sorry for calling everyone out, I love you really I promise) but the more you do now, the less you need to do later! However, if you do wish to start revising now, you need to know how to start revising and where to look if you have no clue what to do. So, to help my fellow #GCSE2020 friends, or anyone who needs to revise, here are ten tried and tested tips and tricks which can help you to revise.

1) Make a revision timetable – ensure it’s as realistic as possible. It’s all well and good having a timetable which shows you working for 9 hours straight without breaks but you need to think: will I really be able to achieve that? If the answer is no, work out what is best for you. Spend more time on subjects you struggle with and are less likely to get a higher grade on. For example, I struggle lots with Science and maths so I am spending more time on those subjects than citizenship.

My Revision Timetable

2) Past Papers are the most magical things. As they say, practice makes perfect and past papers can really help you get a feel for the style of questions and reading through the mark scheme will show you want the examiner is expecting. They’re also super easy to obtain. Just find what exam board you’re using – for example I’m doing AQA English – you’d go to the AQA website and search for past papers – the AQA website lets you select which subject, spec, qualification and series. Then you can just complete and mark them! It’s the easiest way to get example questions with answers. Links for some exam boards are below:

3) Find resources which help you. Websites, workbooks and textbooks are all amazing… If you can find good, helpful material. A website I will never shut up about is one called Seneca. They have a wide variety of subjects which they explore in explicit detail and they help you to understand the topic quickly. Another website which is very helpful is BBC Bitesize. It’s an oldie but a goodie and they provide lots of information which is easily understandable. If you want textbooks than I strongly advise CGP’s. They fit the new spec, have lots of information and even example questions. You can also get them for different exam boards and I have CGP books for Maths, English and Science.

4) Get a revision folder to put all your revision in. It’s easiest to keep it all in one place and it’s far more organised. I have my revision timetable, login details as well as my revision.

My Revision Folder

5) Get an aesthetic! It may sound bizarre, but personally it makes me more motivated to work and I’m prouder of it when I’m done. I also have a higher chance of looking back at it which means I’ll memorise it more

Jack the Ripper’s Victims Information Sheet

6) Have a space where you can constantly revise. It’s got to be a place with minimal distractions and it’s got to be relatively clean so you can focus for longer.

7) If possible, find out if your teachers hold catch up lessons/interventions before, during or after school. They will not only help you understand the subject more and give you tricks to remember for the exam but will also put your mind at ease and make you less stressed.

8) Put away the phone! It helps you to focus! Trust me on this one I know from experience. Even writing my blog earlier, I got sidetracked by my phone and facetimed my boyfriend for almost an hour. You could simply leave it downstairs while you revise upstairs, put it in a cupboard which is nowhere near where you’re studying or even give it to someone to look after so the temptation isn’t there.

9) Keep healthy! Ensure you’re eating enough, sleeping enough, drinking enough and exercising enough. It’ll help you to remain focused for longer and you can avoid falling asleep while analysing Macbeth seeing a dagger before him (true story – I’ve fallen asleep while revising way too much.)

10) Take a break! Just because you’re revising doesn’t mean you can’t have fun! Personally, after I do at least an hour of strong work, I’ll take ten minutes to calm down, stalk peoples social medias and just collect my thoughts. I’ll also factor in a couple of hours a week just to socialise with friends. It’s also a good way to stop my mental health from deteriorating.

Thanks for reading, I hope you found it helpful and feel free to comment other revision tips. See ya soon,

xo baby, Tati xoxo