Today I need to bullet point my whole day. I had a really great day today (01/08/2020), and I can’t wait to share it with you! This is going to be a short and sweet article, so I’m sorry if you prefer my longer articles but I think this one needs to be short. 🙂 Please feel free to like, comment and follow, all that usual stuff.
10am Wake up, ate breakfast, watched How I Met Your Mother, the usual stuff I do on a Saturday morning.
11am Had a shower, completed my skincare routine, a little bit of self care and things. I had to sort out what I was going to wear, what I was going to do today – this took a lot longer than I anticipated… Oops.
12pm After finally sorting everything out, I put on my makeup and got changed. I wrote a couple of blog articles and organised things in my bullet journal.
1pm I had lunch and watched a bit more Netflix, just chilled out a little bit.
1:30pm I went to town to meet my friend, Pastel, so she could help me do some shopping for my brother’s birthday.
3:30pm After seeing old teachers, siblings, and other people we knew, we settled down in The Little Brown Bag and had a mini coffee date – well, smoothie and milkshake gossip – which was super cute and fun ❤
5:30pm Four hours of me dragging Pastel around everywhere, we went our separate ways and I went home.
6pm Dinner, took off my make-up, gave my brother some stuff and settled down to work on my blog, did some online shopping (the drip don’t stop, so you better respect it) and watched even more Netflix while eating snacks.
12am Because my sleep routine is so messed up, I went up to bed and managed to get to sleep by 2am (well, it was quite a lot later than that, but for being a good role model reasons, it was me being a bad influence and falling asleep at 2am).
By popular request, I have decided to go the roots of democracy, and give the people what they have asked for: a day in my life! I’m not sure how this is going to work considering these are normally YouTube videos, not blog articles, but I’ll give it a go! In true YouTuber fashion, this article is sponsored. Thank you so much Cheri Glow Cosmetics for supporting my blog, it means a lot 🙂
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I woke up at 8:30 and I cleaned my room. I’m still not too sure how my room manages to always be messy, but it’s a big feat! After I cleaned my room, I went downstairs and made myself breakfast. I’m still loving Cheerios’ (I’ve been in love since I could eat solid foods to be fair) so I helped myself to a big bowl of cheerios’ with semi skimmed milk and watched some Netflix. I’m currently watching Tiger King and I’ve just finished it today – it’s super good! I continued watching that for a while and then replied to messages on my phone.
After about an hour of binging Netflix and being anti-social, I slogged upstairs and had a shower and went about trying to make myself clean. I 0use Aussie Shampoo and Aussie Conditioner for my hair, and Beauticology shower gel because it smells so good! After I’ve pampered and made my skin go red because of how hot the shower is, I get out and choose my outfit. Today I was going for quite grungy look so I decided to wear my ACDC Shirt with my black distressed jean shorts, all from New Look and I paired that with my black leather converse. It was quite a casual look and it would stop me from melting in the sun.
I still wanted to go for my striking makeup look, so I recreated the look I have in my summer skincare routine which you can see here. I sorted out my hair and went to get myself some lunch. As you know, I adore peanut butter, so it was only logical that I had a peanut butter sandwich on some whole wheat seeded bread with an orange.
After I finished eating, I went to (socially distance) meet up with my friends. It’s so lovely to see them, but whenever we meet, chaos ensues. In the first hour alone, we battled with branches, played an intense game of UNO, sung along to chaotic meme songs and more! I’m super grateful for my friends as they always cheer me up. After a while, we decided to go see our other friend so we began the almost-hour-long trek in the boiling sun, with only pints of milk and energy drinks to keep us going.
Once we finally made it, havoc took place. It’ll take far too long to explain it all so I’ll condense it. We hid loads of plastic babies, messed around with the hose and air soft rifles and my best mate shot me. All in all, it was a super fun day which ended with all of us sat on the grass, reminiscing about secondary school together.
After four hours of crazy fun, I went home to peace and quiet. I had my dinner (Indian food my Mum made – wooo!!) and watched the US Office with my brother.
At about 7pm, I started working on my blog and website designing. I have a newfound love for website designing and I’m obsessed with being creative and this is a great outlet.
I finished that at 10pm, watched some TV and did some artwork for an hour and went to bed, reading my book (BlackKklansman by Ron Stallworth) and then went to sleep, ready to do it all again the next day.
I hope you enjoyed this and please let me know what you want to see next! I’ve really enjoyed writing and posting recently and I’m hoping you all like it too!
At school, I am known as the “yellow girl”. I have a friend in a younger year at school who dubbed me that whenever she forgot my name and it’s stuck. It’s a nice name, a lot better than other ones I’ve been called I can tell you that! But not many people know why I love the colour yellow. Typically, people assume it’s because I love Heathers the musical and I’m going to extreme measures to live out my Heather McNamara fantasy. Others just know I go overboard with my obsessions and that’s why I own so much yellow. However, even though those two assumptions are partially correct, the real reason I love yellow so much is because of what it means to me.
I have briefly mentioned in the past I have some friends who I have fallen out with so badly that the damage is irreparable. I won’t go into all the details because it’s quite personal and I don’t want to share that just yet. However, one of the reasons we drifted is because I never fit into the “mould” of a girl they wanted. They wanted shy, submissive, quiet, smart, subtle, and everything I am the total opposite of. In one period, I was being forced so much into this mould my vigilante-self came out and I began standing my ground – a quality I’d never shown to others before then. You may be wondering where yellow comes into this so here you go…
When the colour yellow was a big fashion trend, my friends hated it. I’m still unsure why but they despised the colour so much, but I found it strange. The clothes some of these girls were wearing on non-school-uniform days were beautiful. It honestly made some of them glow like the sun. However, it made my friends red with anger. So, me being me, I decided to buy something yellow. As silly as it sounds, I decided to stand up for the colour yellow by buying yellow. I love the film Clueless and I wanted a skirt like Cher’s and when I saw someone in London with that yellow skirt, I knew what I wanted. I begged my Dad and he bought me the skirt from Pretty Little Thing. I was so excited when it arrived, I immediately took countless photos of it and set it as my profile picture on WhatsApp. I felt so empowered! I hadn’t worn a skirt before then since I was 5 so it was exciting. To me, this skirt wasn’t just an item of clothing, it was a fragment of another world I’d been trying to get into for so long, but I had been so afraid to. This skirt was a new perspective of the world for me, a perspective where I could be a feminist and wear girly clothes. A perspective where I didn’t have to be worried about what he would say. A perspective in which I can wear whatever I want and not have to be worried about what people say. When I put on that skirt, I wasn’t Tatiana, I was Cher, a slightly (well completely) clueless teenager who people loved who did make mistakes, but she owned up to and grew from them.
To this day I still wear that skirt and without fail, whenever I wear it, I feel strong, empowered and fearless. [I also feel hella cute – but that’s beside the point!]
There you have it! That’s the story of why I love the colour yellow so much. It’s because of what it represents.
Viva le resistance! xo baby, Tati xoxo
P.S – Random Fact: I used to love the colour yellow when I was a titchy Tati so full circle!
This is another mental health awareness post. This time I’m here to show you how my life has been recently, kind of like a general update so you know why my posts have been so sporadic recently. It’s a relatively personal post but that’s not too different to usual. As always, my life has been a roller-coaster of emotions, feelings and experiences and I’ve been facing the highest of highs but also the lowest of lows. So, here’s a general update on how I’m doing.
TW// eating disorders, self-harm, PTSD, sexual assault.
Recently I have been struggling lots with an array of things. I wish I could say that everything’s perfect, but things have been difficult and coming to terms with that is one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. Feeling like you should be feeling so much better than you are is something I’ve struggled with lots but recently I’ve found it near impossible. There are loads of different reasons as to why I am struggling lots, all with different causes and triggers. I can’t stay in lessons for the whole 75 minutes without taking some time out of the class just to collect my thoughts and calm down. On the rare occasions where I can stay in the class, my focus just leaves me, and I am unable to do work. Panic attacks are a daily occurrence and I can’t go a day without getting flashbacks or PTSD. I’m getting constantly slut-shamed by people I don’t know and people who claim to be my friends and I can’t go anywhere alone as I am scared that I’ll get harassed as that has happened many times before. My self-confidence deteriorates by the day and I’ve developed a toxic relationship with food. I can’t stand people touching my stomach and only close friends and family members can hug me. I struggle to sleep and when I do, I get nightmares and I can only go to sleep if there is some background noise like a YouTube video. I accidentally end up in toxic friendships and find it harder to let people in and make friends then ever before. Finally, I’ve lost friends who mean the world to me, who, before this year, I couldn’t imagine my life without them. This may be a part of growing up, but it doesn’t make it any easier for you to let them go.
However, luckily for me, it’s not all doom and gloom. He may be strong, but I am stronger. Whatever he tries to throw at me, I can dodge it and it’ll bounce back or reflect onto him. I’m honestly just very happy I have positives in my life which are what keep me going day in day out. They can be small things like me managing to (mostly) keep on top of schoolwork. Or one of my favourite compliments I’ve been receiving recently which is “But you seem so happy! I’d never expect you to be depressed.” I’m in a specialist therapy to help with the trauma – called EMDR – and it’s been working quick well! (I’ll write a blog article on it when I finally leave it) my anti-depressants are working well which is amazing – I may be 50mg away from the highest dosage but if it works it works. I haven’t self-harmed since the 26th June 2019 no matter how close I’ve been to relapsing which is quite impressive. I have a boyfriend who I really like and care about and it shows “I can trust another individual enough and let them into my life in a romantic way” – my therapists’ words. My friends and family also like him (other than my big and little brother being slightly jealous that there’s another man in my life – sorry guys) and he also reads this blog straight away and is supportive of everything I do – he’s a keeper, what more can I say. I’m slowly getting better with physical contact and I don’t always freak out as much as I once did when people touch certain areas of my body. I’m making a difference in my community and the people in it, helping people through things, raising awareness about what’s important to me etc. I have an amazing tight-knit group of friends who – when we’re together – are all completely off the scale crazy but I wouldn’t have them any other way. We have so many inside jokes and we’re all just one crazy mismatched family who support each other no matter what, no matter how crazy the idea is. Speaking of families, my biological family have been – as always – the most supportive people you will ever meet. My Grandparents read my blog and always message me about it, saying how good it is and how brave I am, my parents deal with my emotions day in day out and are always there for me when I need them most. Even my aunts and uncles who – I think – don’t know what’s going on are still always so kind and loving (and they cook the best food, honestly, they do). Finally, I’m mentally stronger than ever before. Physically I may have the strength of a new-born baby who just got shoved out the womb but mentally I am Superman. I may still have days which are my Kryptonite but overall, the good outweighs the bad and that’s all I have ever wanted.
So, there you have it! That’s what’s been going on in my life for the past couple of months!
Thank you so much for reading, I love you all, stay safe and I’ll see you soon!
xo baby, Tati xoxo
Here’s a toast to my real friends that didn’t care about the he said she said
This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things – Taylor Swift
Tina Fey once said “You have got to stop calling each other sluts and whores. It just makes it okay for guys to call you sluts and whores” and that’s one of my mantras in life. Girls are always so well known for being two-faced, shady and just plain mean – even my Mum has said to me since I was younger that people are mean, but girls can be the worst. I’m not here to tell you to love all and Hakuna Matata your way through all your issues but I am here to try get you to love and support your peers.
With everything going on in the media in the past years, with the #MeToo movement and the abortion laws changing across the world to name a few, us girls should stick together now more than ever. Unfortunately, that’s not always the case. I’ve had my fair share of girlfriends who’ve left me in my times of need, called me an “attention seeker” when they learnt I was depressed, said I was “asking for it” behind my back when I said to them about how I’ve been sexually assulted by someone. I just want to make it clear: as horrible as what they’re saying is, you are strong, beautiful and powerful and you can change the world. These girls are idiotic and it’s clear there is nothing going on in their sad little lives so they decide to take it out on you. That doesn’t make it any less horrible or mean and that won’t change how you feel about them, but time can heal these wounds.
I’m not saying we should love the people who screwed you over in life just because they’re females – at the end of the day they did screw you over. What I am saying though, is you shouldn’t spread gossip about someone just because you’ve fallen out with them, it’s totally unneeded and rude. However, I do want to encorage girl love: give compliments to other girls, tell them what you think, bring them up not down. If a girl seems upset, go speak to her and try help, you never know, you could make a new friend. If you hear gossip or anything mean about someone that’s painfully untrue – call the people who are talking about it out! Tell them what they’re spouting is total rubbish and totally unneeded. These are just a few ideas but you’re all imaginative and unique so I’m sure you have other plans on how to show girl love.
Just remember, you are strong, you are brave and you can rise above it all. Go out there and kick ass, take the high road, it’ll look better on you in the long run and it won’t impact your mental health as negatively – more details about what negatively impacts your mental health soon!