Did I Achieve My 2020 Goals?

I know, I know, this article should’ve been posted before 2021 started, not halfway through January!  I’ve just been kind of busy recently and I wanted to post this so I could officially move on from 2020 – for good.  I did have this article partially written up, all ready to be completed and published, I just… didn’t.  I had other ideas for articles, then I felt like it was too late, but now I am finally sat down here, on a mission to do this, for my mental health more than anything else.

I had lots of great plans for 2020, it’s just a shame that I didn’t exactly get to achieve all of them…. Nonetheless, I was on a mission to make the most of it, no matter what!  In my post my 2019; I discussed what big plans I had for the year ahead and my top goals and how I was going to be coming back at the end of the year, hopefully to tell you how well I did!  Even though I didn’t get to achieve all my plans (a moment of silence please for The Killers concert, Six performance and the trip to America that never was), I still managed to try and achieve all eleven goals I set myself, and I’m here to prove it!

So, without further ado, these are the goals I set myself, and an honest response as to whether or not I did it!

  1. Become better with physical contact! This one did take some time; I’ll be honest with you.  I was getting a lot better, but then certain events took place which meant that I was back too square one.  Luckily though, through continued support of friends and family, therapy experiences, medication, and my own will, I finally did it!  Now I can confidently say to you that I only slightly flinch when I’m not expecting someone to touch me but I’m normally completely okay with it!  Of course, I do still have some moments which are tricky, but I am getting on in leaps and bounds, considering I used to freak out and have a panic attack when anyone reached out to touch me, so I am very proud of myself.
  2. Partake in a protest/march. Okay, I have an excuse for this!  I wanted to but due to coronavirus, I didn’t really feel comfortable partaking in any of the BLM marches/protests.  It’s a shame, but I’m carrying on this goal to 2021!!
  3. Go to a pride event.  Yet again, due to COVID, I couldn’t go to a pride event which was a shame.  But yet again, 2021, I will be going!  Hopefully!
  4. Try to post once a week!  This one honestly started out so well!  It’s just a shame that I burnt myself out and became super busy.  This year I am going to post at my own pace, whatever I want, whenever I want.  It’s worked pretty well for me so far, so let’s hope it stays that way!
  5. Pass at least five GCSEs.  Whilst I didn’t actually get to do the exams, I took thig goal and my word I ran with it!  Not only did I pass five, I passed all the core subjects and all my other exams too! (more on that here), so I’d say, yeah, I think I achieved this goal pretty well!
  6. Become my own person.  After a long process of “self-discovery” I guess you’d call it, I think I’ve finally done it!  I’m now proud to say I’m not “a part of” anyone or anything else, I am completely just Tatiana, no more, no less – and that’s just the way I like it!
  7. Become someone others look up to.  I think I did that.  After I helped a kid in year eight, I realised I could become a good role model, despite certain rebellious ways and features!  I hope that as I grow up and develop myself more, that I become more of a role model and others are inspired by my story of growth, instead of just feeling sorry for me.
  8. Get out more!  God, what irony am I right?  Despite being unable to go out for a lot of 2020, I did manage to go outside and – when it was legal – socialise!  I definitely tried to achieve this, despite things trying to stop me!
  9. Stop feeling bad about what I can’t control.  Man, 2019 Tati was a prophet, wasn’t she?!  I think that during therapy, I really tackled this goal head on.  It was something which I struggled with the most, and I’m proud to say that I am doing a lot better!  I feel like I now have far more control in my own life, due to the fact that I’ve accepted the fact that I can control certain aspects of my life.  All’s well that ends well!
  10. Read More!  I think I’ve done that! It’s been a struggle to keep my focus, but I’m definitely a lot better.  I’m now on my third book of 2021, so I am pretty proud of myself.
  11. Never lose sight of my morals.  Something I will stay true to until the end.  I have my morals which I keep close to my heart, and no matter what, I will not ever betray them – which I think is pretty sound advice too!

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