If you read my post about 2019, you’ll know this year was insane. I lost a few people but gained so many more, I overcame things I never thought I’d be able to, and all in all, I am a bloody warrior now who doesn’t care what anyone thinks. Of course, I wouldn’t be where I am now if it wasn’t for the people I want to thank right now, and that’s why I’m here. I always hope you know how much I care about you but if you don’t, I hope after you read this you understand how much I love each and every one of you.
First up, I want to say the biggest thank you to my family. My Bother aged nine and a bit, and my Mum and my Dad aged… 40 something. I always say it to my friends, but I rarely say it to them so I’m going to say it now. I have the most amazing parents ever. They’re so supportive and kind and they would do anything for me. They’ve taught me so much, ever since I was younger and I hope that if I ever have kids, I’ll raise them like you raised me. My Dad doesn’t mind taking me on late night jaunts where we’ll go out at crazy o’clock and I’ll take photos of the night life while my Mum is okay with staying up and talking to me because I don’t want to sleep because I can’t always deal with the nightmares. Long story short, my parents are now nocturnal because of me and never complain. I’m so lucky to have amazing parents and the cherry on top of the cake is my little brother. As siblings do, he may get on my nerves but more often than not he is the best brother I could ask for. He’s the funniest, smartest, most deserving brother I could ever ask for and I hope he knows how much I love him.
Secondly, my two friends who have been here for me since the start. We have the loved Thumper and my Big Brother who we’ll call Sam. Thumper is the first person I told about being assaulted and ever since that day, he’s supported me so much. He’s fought my battles when I was unable to, been there to pick me up when I’ve given up, and all in all, everyone needs a Thumper in their life – someone who is always willing to lend a helping hand and is more than happy for you to turn up at their house unannounced and will cheer you up to no end. (Also, Thumper’s Mum is an angel and is like a second mother so thanks to her as well.) Sam is always there to distract. He’s let me call him out of the blue who knows how many times and just allows me to scream and yell about how much I hate this thing or how much this person has hurt me. He’s there with his dog walks and he’s more than happy to come over to my house in the evening and we’ll go on walks and try not to get lost. All in all, Thumper and Sam are two of the constant things in my life and I am so lucky to have them supporting me with every crazy idea that comes out.
Next, my Boyfriend. We may have only been going out for two months, but he knows me better than people I’ve known my whole life. He puts up with me when I am at my highest of highs and when I’m at my lowest of lows. He’s the best person to turn to when I’m not feeling my best and he always cheers me up. He’s funny, strong, smart and has an air of “calm” about him whenever I need it most. He’s also my gossip buddy and keeps me up to date on all the craziness that’s happening. Honestly, I am so lucky to have him and if you’re reading this – I love you.
Also, totally worth mentioning, my whole friendship group. In total there’s about 10 of us who sit in the year 11 area at lunch and it’s safe to say that there’s never a dull moment when we’re around. No matter how low I’m feeling, these guys will always manage to make me smile, laugh and just cheer me up. Whether it’s because we’re doing karate without our legs, making a jacuzzi out of chairs, refusing to sit on the chairs and just… Squatting, showing everyone our friends new son – a cactus, screaming song lyrics or just having some nearly give someone else concussion because he threw a shoe and it hit his head, there’s never a dull moment and I feel so blessed to have a friendship group which likes me for me.